What the...

don't read this post, if you are too sensitive...

a muslim cleric somewhere in the world thinks that women shouldn't touch bananas or cucumbers because they might make them think of men's penis...

what the fuck!!!???? what does he think? women are as uncontrollable as men???
i feel like beating him up. this is how they represent Islam to the world. who already think that we are barbaric and inhuman!!!!

the man must be sick, or out of his mind. the public is laughing, calling Islam as sex obsessed religion!!!
this is not how it is suppose to be!!!!!

:(
Sugandh

guilty

well,  i am guilty of being not strong enough to forbid my driver from breaking signal!!!


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The Time of the Life

there comes a time in your life, when u get confused about ur decisions, u keep thinking that whether u took the right decision or not, whether you are on the correct path or not? whether what you hv chose is right or wrong...
doubts doubts and doubts.
and to make things worse that time seems to come again and again!!!!!  :(
Sugandh

so much to do and....

ah! life plays strange games with us. once upon a time when i had all the time in the world, i had nothing to write about. i would sit in front of this screen for hours and hours and think what should i write?
what would be of interest to me and ppl? what should make it to public eye and what should remain hidden? :( i had nothing to write about.

and when my life took a U turn i ended up doing what i wanted most, i have a lot to write but alas! i have no time to write it...

life is strange :(
Sugandh

The political hype and my comments

so everyone is getting ready for elections in this country. due to various reasons, i was unable to follow the rallies of PML - N and PTI, but i did see "in the line of fire" a program on dawn news covering Imran Khan, and that was that.

whatever the result be of these various rallies on our political scene, one thing i am sure of is that out politicians love to sing. first it was altaf hussain and then it was shahbaz sharif.

the funniest moment when altaf said that there was nothing useful in the speech of shahbaz sharif. kindly tell me what was useful in ur speech??????

and then baber aiwan's comments after shahbaz sharif's speech were hilarious!!!!!!

so i wont comment any more on the circus that my poor country hv become...

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WOMEN

for some weird reason, i feel like writing an ode to women  - in general - i want to reassure every woman that she is especial, that even just by existing she is making this world a better place.

a woman endures so much even today that i can't even think of!!!!!! with my protected and pampered life. with my rights, as human being, a woman and muslim, i can't even think of what women go through every day, what they have went through during the centuries!!!!!!!

a woman gives up so much - good or bad, right or wrong, deserving or undeserving, a woman gives up so much. i always think that women can change their own fate, no one will come from outside to give them what they so badly desire - recognition, equality, respect, rights - women have to fight for themselves.

a woman, still tries to prove herself, prove that she deserves the life she has, that she deserve the education, the chance of work, the reward that she got, the freedom she has so fought for. nothing have changed for a woman. everything is still same, it is just wearing fancier clothes.

i have heard men go on and on about how their wives are, but have they ever realised that their wives might have something to say. that may be they have given up their fate to be with them. most of them, no.

i wont say that women are perfect, but they are far far away from what they actually deserve. we still don't respect woman for anything!!!!! neither her beauty, intellect, skill, - nothing. she is still the commodity!!!!

why???

the way women have fought for their rights, for human rights, the way they fought for the equal pay, voting rights, they way they work in farms, they run business, they raise kids, they earn a living, they make homes, the way they dress up, they way they talk, the way they make u feel. isn't it just simple beautiful?????

the women for some weird reasons are thought of as weaker gender, but yet they are subjected to the worst tortures that any one can think of.

why?

i dunno what i hv wanted to write and what i have written , i am simply overwhelmed by what women have done for this world since the beginning of the times, how they have been treated and whatever they continue to do, despite everything. i have no words to express what i have to say....

Sugandh

AALU ANDAY

i discovered this video just now... and i m hooked. WOW ppl in pakistan are getting braver and political everyday. i just gave up the hope of ppl [read youth] becoming political any day soon, but now i was wrong. good job guys




and just today i filled a form in college about social media and political activities in Pakistan. no doubt that youth have become more politically aware and they speak out more often, all thanks to platforms like facebook, twitter, and blogger :), but it is a long way before ordinary ppl start participating in politics actively.

till then i'll keep my fingers crossed and hopes high.

wabasta reh shajar se, umeed-e-bahar rakh :)

Sugandh

Pakistani comics

i am a big comic fan. ever since i learnt how to read them [follow the conversation] i have never let go of the chance to read a comic, wherever it is published. initially my favorites were 'Archie comics' [they still hold a special place on my bookshelf]

and then there were comics like 'Marvin',

'blondie'

and 'family circus' 

and not to forget 'Garfield'

but all of these comics were foreign and whatever they depicted it was alien [although not very to me, but still] so when i discovered 'kachee goliyan' i was exhilarated. why???? our very own comic, showing the real face of our society and showing what is the thought process of our youth and how we are affected by foreign media and blah blah blah....

the success of 'kachee goliyan' also proves something to me, that i always was in doubt of, that Pakistanis are unable to embrace a new idea - but it proved to me that new ideas can flourish in Pakistan, if they are good they would be liked and appreciated.

'kachee goliyan' have also provided a venting medium to youth, in form of 'fan art' on their facebook page. it is not only artist who now owns the comic, it is everyone - like me- who now owns kachee goliyan and use the characters of 'JC and Sufi' to say whatever they feel like saying.

'kachee goliyan has done a lot and i hope that they continue to do more'

three cheers for KG....

Sugandh

The urge to retaliate

someone from my last job, told me not to do that in my new environment. she begged me not to make the enemies - people who would hate me or in more subtle way dislike me- but i am still me. i feel like retaliating right now. throw this very diary at the head of the guy sitting somewhere behind and give him piece of my mind. why? because he is stupid and stupidity i can't stand. he is full of sick humor that most average guys (in my view) are full of!!!!!

he would just agree with anything that a teacher has to say, just to make fun of the teacher later when he/she is not around, he would flatter the teacher during the class and pass those stupid comments at those who ask questions or argue over some point with the teacher... because all he ever say is, 'sir aap kehtay hein tou maan laytayh ein' ( sir if you are saying this and this is why we are agreeing with it)

i am not being sarcastic, i am only angry and i feel like breaking the promise! if i could...

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Not Good Enough

sitting in the class, someone passed a comment about me. i generally don't pay attention to the comments. i am selectively deaf; but things changed. my heart became sad and something changed in cosmos. i realized that i am the only girl in my class who dare to argue or have an opinion! rest of them - usually quiet - though very bright but they choose not to speak. why?

guys would simply think that girls are not suitable for the technical fields and if they are good or get high marks, it is due to rote learning or favors of the teachers; they are never good enough ... girls in the men's field.

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Woes of a software engineer...

or rather i should say estranged software engineer. after a long gap of 5 years i remembered that i am a software engineer and that i should go back to my own field and finish my studies and do something in it.

so i left my teaching job, left my home and moved to a different city ( i used to live here once upon a time, so this is not a new city) and got admission in a university to complete my masters degree in software engineering ( i started it in 2007). so in the classroom, i go back....

in the classroom everything was alright until the teacher started teaching. introductions were all easy. subjects were all that i had taken before. good... so far; and after almost three months, i feel like a stranger (obviously i am a stranger). kids know more acronyms than i do. technology has changed (and so have girls' hairstyles) and some i have forgotten (lack of practice) so here i am in deep trouble... i took a gigantic leap for following my dreams, just to realize that things and conditions have changed...

now, what will i do? persevere.... that is what i'll do.....read more books and relearn everything!!!!!!

:)
wish me luck
Sugandh

Explanation...

the posts that are going to follow are the ones that i wrote in my classes or during the breaks and they are incomplete.....

the thoughts are my own and no one is responsible for them.

Sugandh

Awesome Things

i discovered about 1000 awesome things last year, and ever since i have been following it. it is a very nice idea to count one's blessings. a man who was depressed started this blog so that he could count things that were nice in his life, that made his life worth living! awesome idea - simply awesome.

if we think like this, we can all write our own awesome things blogs. whenever i think about this blog i start noticing things that i fine awesome.
like the smell f coffee, smell of freshly mowed grass, the smell of rain on soil, the smell of beach. the smell of babies, the flowers, the spring, the winters, ice creams, beads, knitting, cross stitching, buying you favorite book, earning and spending :)

i can go on and on with my list of awesome. so if you have never heard of this blog, go and see it. you will certainly like many things there and find them "awesome"
cheers
Sugandh

Thoughts

most of the times when i have got an interesting title, i have got nothing to write and when i have got something to write i don't have a title!!!!!

so well, i just finished watching the movie 'julie and julia'. amazing movie, inspiring and happy in the end!!!! ah i m in awe of cooks. actually i m in awe of everyone who can cook. i am just not one of them!!!!!!! :( even when i want to cook, i don't!!!!!!! i have no idea, why???????

well, people sometimes don't know what they want, but most of the times they know what do they want!!!! i just don't know all the time what i want!!!!! :/

i had a job, a salary and a future [despite being a bleak one] but i left it for doing masters in ... software engineering. when i have forgotten half the computer languages i learnt in undergraduate program. when i am in doubt of ever finding a job! and then i have very less fund to complete this degree and the institute i chose have no scholarships for masters, so i have to apply for a general scholarship, but for that i have to give a GAT test first and that is in November and by that the last date for scholarship would be way too behind!!!!!!! Phew!!!!! i said it all. so i dunno what do i want!!!

life can be confusing, but then that's life. if it is not confusing, then u really don't have life!!!!!

enjoy, while you can and i read 38th book of the year.
Sugandh

Reaction

ok, i m late, but here is my reaction to altaf hussain's speech yesterday. you can't blame me for not listening to him. at 8 o'clock i turn on the TV and i switch to Dawn News, wanting to listen to news bulletin but what the hell, there is altaf hussain on, ok no problem i m going to switch the channel, tune to Hum TV, watch the new drama serial. 9 o'clock drama ends, i switch back to Dawn News [i get desperate for news at times :S] still altaf hussain on, flip the channel, altaf hussain, again change the chanel, altaf hussain and on almost every news channel altaf hussain. ok no problem. listen to him, get his version of the story. [i really believe in versions of stories] ok be patient SW. he is going to make sense to you after sometime. you are confused because you are listening to him for the first time.

alright, i am doing great for sometime and then he start singing 'bolo, bolo, bolo, kuch tou bolo' and that just ticked me off, and i changed the channel to BBC Lifestyle saying bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. i have never said this much bullshit in my life. [i later found out that he actually sang 'parday mein rehnay dou' and today i found out that he actually said 'darling journaliston kay leeaye!!!!!!!!]

Goodness, how can people stand this for hours when i was unable to stand him for 15 minutes. people must have greater amounts of patience than me!!!!! certainly!!!!!

after the press cum video conference, all the tv anchors start analyzing what happened!!!!!! WOW. but nothing happened, everyone looked so pissed off at MQM and MQM blew it big time. Hamid Mir actually cut that Ex Mayor!!!!! and Talat Hussain dug out every video evidence of altaf hussain's past statements!!!!! wow! all of sudden it looks like media was shaking off the fear of MQM.

Amazing.... i always thought that all the media was afraid of the MQM , but yesterday was amazing. :D

no i m not specifically hard on MQM. Political parties in Pakistan, usually don't make sense, although at heart i tend to favor sindhis but i m not pro the nationalist parties of sindh that exist at the moment, but let me tell you this, i can actually listen to ayaz latif palijo, safder sarki and qadir magsi. although i don't agree to them at times!!!!! i am able to listen to asif ali zardari - the president, and yousuf raza gilani, after everything, [just like his today plea for flood victims. he should have told what government is doing, not what people and international community ought to do] but yesterday was unbearable.

so after watching some more BBC Lifestyle, i come to my room and imagine the torture, the parosees listening to the speech in full volume!!!!!! i wanted to bang my head against the nearest wall, but i refrained. i picked up my knitting and ran back downstairs. and started watching some more BBC Lifestyle.

if i kill another soul for the "LEADERS" then i m damned fool...


P.S. Zulfiqar Mirza must be a happy man these days, as he ignited all this(~quoting ahad ali shah kazmi)

Sugandh

Teachers

happy teachers day


when we think of our teachers we tend to think of the teachers that we liked, who we thought as our ultimate role model. we tend to ignore teachers that were not so good, that were rude and hard and unkind. we don't think of the teachers that made our life miserable while teaching us. [i had quite a few of such teachers]


when i was in school [that would be high school as i still am in school and that would be university :P] i had teachers who would go out of the way to facilitate the students, who would listen to anything we had to say and in short such teachers were everyone's favorite. i had an English teacher, who not only encouraged us to speak, but also encouraged us to do things that we were generally interested in. [in my case it was embroidery and speaking out] and there were teachers who made our life hell, from ridiculing the hair styles of the students [and mind it, we were only allowed simple pony tails or plaits] to ridiculing the way we spoke, not correcting us but making fun. now you can imagine the amount of respect that i have for both of them and the difference.


when i was training to be a teacher, my English teacher asked the class, what kind of teachers you would like to be, to help us set our future goals. and he said you would be lucky if you have a favorite teacher. i was the luckiest i had 3 favorite teachers, one from school and two from university. i would really like to be like my English teacher of 8th grade, but i would certainly like to avoid being like my English teacher of 10th grade. [seems like English teachers have influenced me a lot] a teacher is a person who is suppose to encourage, to polish, to listen to. a teacher is supposed to be a guide, a friend, a mentor, not some one who labels you, discourage you and ridicule you!!!!!!


this is a very serious job, with high responsibility [so what if little income] and if you can't take that responsibility please don't become a teacher and ruin young minds and give false information to them. 


happy teaching to all the teachers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sugandh

Eid, Suspicion and other thoughts

Eid

Eid Mubarak to everyone who is reading this. may ur day be filled with joy and rain water :P

so here i am on eid, wearing a very 'festive' looking dress and my sister go like, you wore this dress today!!! you should have waited for a festive occasion. and i go like, "what is more festive than eid?"

this convo simply reflect that people have actually forgotten that eid is a gift from Allah, for successfully observing the month of Ramzan and for forbidding oneself from things that are allowed only for the happiness of Allah. this is the day to dress up and be happy. it is not the day off only!!!!!

Suspicion

How is it possible that Zulfiqar Mirza sahib speak and I don’t comment on it? So there goes the bomb, he had said out loud what most of us wanted to hear. [at least ppl I know, wanted to hear what he said!!!!] and then the news reporters, current affairs anchors, ppl in  general started asking, if he is speaking the truth? God! How suspicious a nation can get? We are actually divided in groups just because of a statement from a politician. we as a nation should stop being suspicious and start looking for the truth ourselves. Or else we are doomed for the eternity if only we believe in what we hear!!!!! GET UP PPL!!!!!!

and people i met!!!!!


so i joined this new university for doing masters and i met quite a few people and some of them are so nice that u immediately want to be friends with them and some of them are so horrible  that i would like to stay away from them... Well ppl!!!!!!


Sugandh

My Little Girl

i started teaching in 2008 and the first class i got was of 6th grade along with 5th. i was 23 years old, almost fresh out of university and hugely emotional. my students gave me something to look forward to. the happiest moment was when i tried to teach them something and they actually got the hold of the almost new concept of science and their faces shone with the pride of knowing something. the satisfaction that i got seeing their faces can not be compared to any other satisfaction.

the first class that i taught was quiet, as only few students were present, i introduced myself and ask them about them, what they liked, and what was their favorite subject. all the introductory stuff. in that class there was a sweet girl, thin, short, with big eyes. she always looked inquisitive. pretty good at studies, monitor of her class and she came from a very respectable family too!!!!!

the only word that i could of think for her was 'sweet'. we were not teacher and student, we were friends, older sister, younger sister kinda relationship. and then i left the job in that school, moved to other school, a new job, new set of students to teach!!!!!

i lost touch with her and today when i found her this is what she has written about her on her facebook info page.

"I'm not perfect. I'll annoy you tick you off, say stupid things & then take them back. But put all them aside, You'll never find a girl that cares and loves you more than me. I can turn from a Normal girl to a total Bitch in'a Second ! :* I Hate Love ! sometimes I can be Rude, Bictchy, Mean but if you can't tolerate me at my worst sure you dont deserve me at my best ! Crazzzzzzzzzzyyyyy :* and i love being it ♥ :D My Friends are my life ♥ :') Never Regret, live the moment and move on :) that's what i always do :p For me Life is climb, and we all are climbers . . I'm near the Top ♥ .. And I'm good at confusing people :p you hate me? get in the line with others waiting for me to give a fuck ! Man I Love My self :* ♥ :D"

i wonder what happened to my sweet girl. the way today's youth use the bad language thinking that it is cool and in, is so disheartening.
Sugandh

Birthday Blues

one of my students said, "miss how old are you?"
i said, "25 years."
she said, "you are too old. you should get married or at least get engaged. miss XYZ is younger than you, but she is already engaged."

my brother said, "i live with three old women" (referring to mom, me and our sister)
i said, "i don't feel old, when i was 19 i thought that by the age of 25 i'll be doomed, too old to do anything, but now i don't feel old enough."
he said, "whatever!"

ha! people think that i m too old, but ask me i just started living and making sense of myself :)
happy 26th birthday SW!




Sugandh

30 books

on shelfari i joined a group called 50 books challenge. the aim of this group is to encourage reading. this group asks its members to read 50 books in a year. when i joined this group, i was like i wont be able to read 20 books in a year leave alone 50 books, so this year i set myself a target of reading 30 books! i was not sure if i'll be able to achieve this target or not! :D but guess what, i achieved my target int he 8th month of the year and i have got 4 more months to go. may be i'll be able to read 6 or 7 more books. the list of the books that i have read this year is below:

• 1: Fatima's Good Fortune: A Novel
• 2: A Summer All Her Own
• 3: Cynic's Dictionary
• 4: Addictionary: Brave New Words
• 5: Life
• 6: Memoirs of a Geisha
• 7: Love, with Noodles: An Amorous Widower's Tale
• 8: Head Over Heels
• 9: She Is Me : A Novel
• 10: Raja Gidh
• 11: The Edge of Pleasure
• 12: The Sunday Wife: A Novel
• 13: Seven Loves: A Novel
• 14: Nice to Come Home To
• 15: Listening at the Gate
• 16: The White Rose
• 17: Stories for Parents, Children and Grandchildren - Volume 2
• 18: The Spanish Bride: A Novel of Catherine of Aragon
• 19: The Bell Jar
• 20: Ten Eternal Questions: Wisdom, Insight, and Reflection for Life's Journey
• 21: Kiss the Dust
• 22: Are You Alone on Purpose?
• 23: The Lost Symbol
• 24: The Host
• 25: The Dollmaker's Daughters
• 26: Burning Bright
• 27: Dancing Girl's Worship
• 28: Missing Persons: A Writer's Guide to Finding the Lost, the Abducted and the Escaped (Howdunit Series)
• 29: Beside a Burning Sea
• 30: The Holiday

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Sketchpad

so i discovered this new application today, called sketchpad by google chrome and i loved it!
here is the picture that i made using sketchpad

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Freedom of Speech and other thoughts...

Freedom of Speech
i certainly enjoy freedom of speech, because i mostly say what i feel like, but freedom of speech doesn't mean that i m allowed to hurt anyone. we are morally responsible individuals. it is true that freedom of speech is one of the greatest right of every human being, but we should also make sure that nobody get hurt by whatever we say.

i believe in many things and i don't believe in many things as well, but if i m to live in this society then i have to make sure that i live here as peacefully as possible without causing pain and grief to anyone around me. now if people think that Islam is the religion that put ban on freedom of speech, they are wrong. Islam put ban on hurting anyone. so if some individual is not following this and saying things vice versa then that individual is mistaken, because most of the times people don't take things at their face value, they interpret things as they wish to!!!! Allah has granted us the permission to ask questions and seek knowledge, and those who have understood the truth about this universe have understood the truth about Allah.

making caricatures of Prophet Muhammad [P.B.U.H] can represent freedom of speech to few, but it causes pain to millions of Muslims. whatever u prefer????? peace among different religions or animosity in the world!!! we need to learn to respect the values of each other!!!

*Ethical Will*
so i read this in reader's digest - an article by Beth Dreher - that everyone needs to write down something for their future generations, for their kids, grand kids or anyone at all, something that represent who you actually are, what u believed in, what u expected from life and what you got from it!!!! so many things that one can tell its children!!! Nice Idea.


\Insulting Others/
insulting others is an art that i never mastered. i just can't make them feel insulted enough :(... but his thing is a master piece, it is by T.S. Elliot on Henry James

" he had a mind so fine that no idea could violate it."

Sugandh

the best quote ever...

i would be most content if my children grew up to be the kind of people who think decorating consists mostly of building enough bookshelves.
~ Anna Quindlen


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The Teacher's Daughter

everyone tells me that whatever i did back in school was because of my mother!!! my mother was teacher in my school! and i always wondered that what is the basis for people to think that?????? my mother actually refused to give me one extra mark in my Sindhi exam of grade 8th!!!!! and people said that my good marks were influenced by mother [only in one way they were influenced and that was she made sure that we were well prepared for the exams].... so my question was answered after so many years. why people thought that being a teacher's daughter was an advantage?

so this hppens that i was giving this exam for my graduate degree in education and there was this girl with roll number that was to be seated in the front seat and she happens to be  the daughter of one of the teachers working in the center where we are giving our exams!!!!! so every one from invigilators to center in charge and  the externals are not only ignoring that girl but they are making sure that she gets all the answers and is able to cheat peacefully.... [they even changed her seat] and she gets full benefit of being a teacher's daughter!!!!!!

sadly! her mother isn't realizing that she is ruining her daughter's faith and future :(

P.S. my brother tells me to stop being astonished every time i see some thing happen in the exam hall!!! but no amount of experiences like that will get me used to injustices!!!
Sugandh

The Sad Situation

so i hv exams of my sunday class, as i already mentioned. there were 12 papers altogether, 3 down, 9 more to go. and this post is my commentary on the last three days. i believe that as a student my duty is to study and i m answerable for this to God that whether i performed my duty with honesty or not! examination is part of any educational process and it is as important as studying!!!

now when we are inside the examination hall, the scene is unbelievable - for me at least- everyone inside the classroom solely depend on the cheating, everyone - that is except for me and my sister- and they have got marvelous methods of cheating. one of the girl wears a burqa and constantly talks on the phone, bringing books and notes in the socks and shoes are a norm. asking each others for questions is a norm too. and guess what!!!??? they all r teachers.[but i feel like calling them cheaters]. the invigilators think that it is the right of student to cheat and the center in-charge also think that a nd students obviously think that!!!

the sad thing is that all these student - teachers used to give these long arguments abt the deterioration of the standards of education in Pakistan and how it can be improved and that cheating is a disease and it should be eradicated and how they can make the education system of Pakistan better. blah blah blah!!!! all were lies.

the interesting thing is that the papers are so easy that anyone who is a practicing teacher with little common sense can solve it! mostly they ask for our ideas and arguments with no hard core theories involved!!!! everyday i pray for a strict invigilator, but i doubt if there exist such a creature in Pakistan.

i m a very scared person, i m scared of Allah and the punishments that Allah might give for dishonesty. i am scared of seeing myself if i cheat and practice dishonesty. how can i face myself or Allah or anyone if they actually know that i am a cheater???????????

these people are not scared, they cry for the religion, but they don't practice their religion!!! honesty was one of the virtues of Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) and we all are to follow in his footsteps. is this how we do it????


ANSWERS ANYONE????? 
GOD SAVE THIS COUNTRY!!!!
Sugandh

Random Thoughts

Writing
writing have therapeutic effect on human beings. if my mind is overflowing with thoughts and i can not manage them i start to write them down. then they start making sense, they start linking to each other and i feel that i am emptying myself. pouring myself out. though there may not be anyone who would read what i write, and my writing is not intended for reading [except for the blogs and tweets and notes on FB] as well, but still i write them down. speak away things via pen and paper and get done with the burden on my soul. i feel light, not happy but still less sad and sleepy. :)

Exams:
i have to appear in exams for my sunday classes and as a result i'll get a bachelors degree in education!!!!! one thing i learned that if anything is wrong with Pakistan, it is its teachers!!!! they r the one who train the future leaders and honestly speaking the teachers [most of them] are lazy, uninterested in learning and innovating, unable to do things differently and uncreative!!!! they do not deserve to be teachers!!!! and guess what they all are going to get this license for teaching and opening their own educational institute!!! SAD :(

Resignation
i left my teaching job because i m going back to university for my further studies! and after my studies i might never teach again and find a job as a software engineer! i might never even use the degree that i'll get in education, but the experiences that i got from teaching are priceless. my teaching job supported me when i was totally in ruins and had no hope for future. it got me the unconditional love of my students. it taught me how to tolerate people and listen to others. it gave me self confidence when i was left with none. i dunno how much i taught others but one thing is certain that i learnt a lot from teaching others!!!! these are the experiences that i'll never ever forget or want to forget! :) 

Sugandh

20 tips for writers by Douglas Clegg

this is hilarious, enjoy!

20 Tips for Writers by Douglas Clegg

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The Sketches

if you are Pakistani, you have got a lot of problems in the world - people don't trust you, you have got no job opportunity, no electricity, inflation, etc - but if you are Sindhi in Pakistan you are simply mocked for it! because of what our politicians that speak our language, did to this country!!!!!

there are people who will think that you belong to the ruling party, because they got majority in Sindh - even if you don't support them, the ruling party is a liability to every Sindhi for what have they done. simply speaking they have ruined our image of soft spoken, humble, hard working, and accommodating Sindhi. for everyone we are liars, fraudulent, cheats and what not. this government has done no good to the image of the people that they claim to represent, so much harm is done that it will take decades to undo it!!!!

now it is the duty of common man to undo whatever wrong has been done and restore their image as a nation! and The Sketches is exactly doing the same. this new band from Jamshoro makes sufi music with a little fusion. their recent act in coke studio was an outstanding performance and unlike other sindhis performing in coke studio, they chose to sing in Sindhi - a wai of Shah Abdul Latif Bhitai, sufi poet of Sindh- and they did justice to that!!! i am very grateful to them for doing this and making us proud.

this is just a beginning in changing our image as a nation, there is a long way to go and everyone has to do their part!!!! But i would thank The Sketches for doing their part and making us proud!

sugandh

Being Clever

it is very hard for me to write!!!!! i just can't simply write things like people do. my writing stop making sense to me after few sentences and i am unable to end a piece logically!!!! :(

the reason i don't write stories for!!! and second thing i am very objective.... no imagination, no sense of humor :(.... things appear to me as they are, until someone points out to me what they actually meant!!!!

now i read a lot, books, magazines, blogs, statements, statuses of my contacts on FB and Twitter, and i wonder how clever they are and i wish to write like them, but alas! i can't, i just simply can't sound witty or sarcastic or anything. but then i realize that that would not be me and if i tried really hard to sound like other people, i would be other people, not me!!!! so from right now, i give up trying to be witty!!!! 

and i'll enjoy being myself!!!

Sugandh

The Conflict Within!!!!!!!

sometimes we don't even realize that there are so many of us inside us!!!!!!!!

until we reach some cross road in our life and we need to take some decision! until we fall in love with a person who contradict us!!!!!!

then only we realize that there are so many of us inside us!!!!!!!!

the two of you inside you keep fighting within you causing a conflict inside you, people outside might think that you are at peace with the world outside you, but it is only you who go through such hell!!!! asking questions and answering them for yourself!!! and never being satisfied with the answer given!!! never reaching a destination, never achieving a goal!!!!!!

the inner war is the most dangerous of all wars!!!!!

and often the two of you are polar opposite of each other. never agreeing on one thing, never loving the same person, never wanting to do the same thing!!!!!

you hate yourself for this!!!! you hate people for thinking of you having no problem!!!! some might see your predicament but they wont understand you!!! thinking this is for attention seeking, self generated problem!!!! whatever, this is the problem!!!! you fighting with you!!!!!

i have not found out yet, what to do with the other me!!!!! the scared me ~ and she has not found out, what to do with me!!!!!! the outspoken one ~ the pretender!!!!!
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human beings are amazing they survive this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sugandh

Getting up!!!!

Life teaches you to pick yourself up, dust yourself down, and start all over again! ~ Sharon Stone


it took me so long to get up and do what i wanted to do!!!!
sometimes when u fail to do what you wanted to do you just give up and lament on ur failures.
this is so easy, to accept things as they are, to accept oneself as a failure, but it is so hard to get up and turn things around!!!! there are many ways to look at one's life, there are many ways to look at your own life!!! from one angle i may find myself a failure, but from a different angle i may find myself as a most successful woman in my own way!!!! it all depends how you see yourself!!!


changing your point of view, your vision and your goal for life is not easy!! when you grow up wanting to be someone, when you have endless conversations with yourself about how u'll behave when you will be that somebody and road mapping everything from your dresses to your accent and your gestures and all of sudden you just can't be what you want to be!!!!!!! it is shocking!!!! 


leave the world alone, you become nobody in your own life, leave people's expectations away, you have not lived upto your own expectations! life is a burden that you carry everyday that you live and death and cowardice and disappearance become the easier things to bear to do!!!!


but this is not life!!!!!! 
'when life give you rain, play in the puddles!'
and someday you decide that enough is enough, i mnot going to stay here and mop for rest of my life!!!!! and you get up, dust yourself down and start all over again! and truly is living life!!!! you look for new you and then you are amazed how many of you are inside you!!!!!!!!! human beings are amazing! they can survive anything!!!!! :)

Sugandh