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Monday, July 20, 2015

Eid, Peshawar Attack and other thoughts...

Well, i have been too lazy to write. in fact laziest i have ever been. i am doing lots of things and i want say lots of things but there is no desire to do anything, anyway who cares about it?

But Eid Mubarak :). Eid always makes me happy for no particular at all

After Peshawar attack, life seems to be empty. what kind of nation are we that we could not protect our kids? and when they died we were questioning each other's methods of mourning and labeling each other different things and playing politics and news on dead bodies... what a shame!!!!

i don't think i'll ever get over peshawar attack, yes the edges have blurred and the pain has dulled, but will it ever go away? i don't think so, i don't want it to...

I see all these pages on facebook and the news and stuff they are doing for the children, who died and i really appreciate it, but a piece of news a few weeks back in which the surviving children and their parents held a press conference in Lahore complaining about the neglect that they are facing at the hands of government made me wonder what about those who have become crippled, depressed and unhealthy in result of this attack? what about the survivors. I always think that dying is the easiest thing, because one becomes oblivious of what happens behind. who suffers? who cleans up and who does what is non of the concern of the dead. but surviving is the difficult part. you need to be there to clean up, to pick up the pieces and to put things back together. you need to overcome the loss, the pain, the suffering. and i see nothing on social media or conventional media about those who survived the attack. how r they doing? what happened to them? are they able to get over their pain and suffering? are they still traumatized? what about the follow up?

no news. if you know something about this, i am greatly curious.

Cyril Almeida tweeted this. "I will go on a hunger strike in protest if Altaf doesn't go on his hunger strike protest"


Sunday, June 14, 2015

Urdu Shairy [poetry]

i am typing this while listening to Madam Noor Jehan sing Faiz Ahmed Faiz's 'aa ke wabista hein tujh se' a poem dedicated to the other lover of the beloved, which tells the story of why the person in question spent his time after such a love.

urdu poetry has always provided me the words to say things which i thought were impossible to say. be it the times of loss, sadness, failure or time of triumph and rejoicing and hope, urdu poetry was always there. i dare say that i have never read anything as beautiful as urdu ghazal anywhere...

i was eleven years old when i heard a class fellow practice a 'nazm' of Iqbal and i went to her and told her that if you understand what it says, it'll become easier to sing it [i can't sing even if my life depended on it!!!] and that was the day when i realized that this is a poem and i understand it. and i have never seen back since. during that time [1996-97] Nasir Kazmi's 'ghum hai ya khushi hai tu' was aired frequently on PTV sung by Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan and it was amazing. the utmost sadness 'go-to' tune.

During grade 9th my friend and I just fell in love with urdu poetry head over heels, gone was the time when understood it merely and now we were writing it and enjoying it and memorizing couplets [ashaar] by heart and looking for the ghazals and nazms to memories. my grade 9th urdu book played a vital role in this with Bahadur Shah Zafar's ghazal

"Na thi haal ki jab apni khabar, rahay daikhtay auron ke aib-o-hunr
pari apni buraiyon pe jab nazar, tou nigah mein koi bura na raha"

[when i was unaware of my own follies, i kept looking at others and pointing their faults out, but when i realized my shortcomings, i don't find anyone bad anymore]

and then it was "Sahir Ludhyanivi, Faiz Ahmed Faiz, Ahmed Faraz, Perveen Shakir, Meer Taqi Meer, Ghalib and whoever you can name. We spent hours talking to each other in poetry and dictating it to each other and maintaining volumes of the poetry.

And then came "bait Bazi" competition at school and it gave us whatever encouragement we needed to spend more time with poetry.

Urdu poetry gives me a thrill every time i hear something very grand said in very few words like this couplet that i discovered other day

"misl-e-parwana nahi kuch zar-o-maal apnay pass
hum tum pe faqat fida karnay ko jaan rakhtay hein"

[just like a moth i own nothing but the life that i could give for you]

and Faiz Ahmed Faiz's "Khuda Woh Waqt Na Laye" and Noon Meem Rashid's "Admi Se Dartay Ho" and the poems by Ibn-e-Insha

"Farz Karo hum ahl-e-wafa hon, farz karo deewanay hon
farz karo yeh dono batein jhooti hon afsanay hoon
farz karo yeh nain tumharay such mukh ke mekhanay hon
farz karo tumhein khush karnay ke dhoonday hum ne bahanay hon"

there is the revolutionary poems of Jalib, Faiz, Sahir and so on...

there is Nasir Kazmi, Qateel Shifai, Amjad Islam Amjad, Ahmed Faraz, Ada Jaffery and Kishwar Naheed.

There is an unending list of poets and my favorite poems, there is also an unending list of topics that urdu poetry covers, and emotions and ideas that it gives voice to .

i leave here tonight with a wonderful website of Urdu Poetry "Rekhta" the language is set to Urdu but there is an option of English and Hindi.


Friday, May 1, 2015


What i just garnered from MQM's yesterday's press conference was the fact that Haider Abbas Rizvi speaks very good urdu!

unlike most people today


Friday, December 26, 2014

Read 50 Books

62 done :D

here is the list - last finished is the first listed

1. The Maze Runner by James Dashner
2. Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella
3. Shopaholic and Baby by Sophie Kinsella
4. Shopaholic & Sister by Sophie Kinsella
5. Shopaholic Takes Manhattan by Sophie Kinsella
6. Confessions of a Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella
7. Knit Two by Kate Jacobs
8. Allegiant by Veronica Roth
9. Insurgent by Veronica Roth
10. Divergent by Veronica Roth
11. Animal Farm by George Orwell
12. The Casual Vacancy by J. K. Rowling
13. Adultery by Paulo Coelho
14. Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins
15. Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins
16. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
17. The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
18. Little Men by Louisa May Alcott
19. Lady Chatterley's Lover by D.H. Lawrence
20. Winnie Mandela by Nancy Harrison
21. Tuesday With Morrie by Mitch Albom
22. Rough Music: Blair Bombs Baghdad London Terror by Tariq Ali
23. The 2 !/2 Pillars of Wisdom by Alexander McCall Smith
24. 1894 by George Orwell
25. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green
26. 2 States by Chetan Bhagat
27. The Firm by John Grisham
28. The Testament by John Grisham
29. Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert
30. The Skeptic's Dictionary: A Collection of Strange Beliefs.Amusing Deceptions. and Dangerous Delusions by Robert Todd Carroll
31. The Second Husband by Louise Candlish
32. Good Wives by Louisa May Alcott
33. The Procession by Khalil Jibran
34. Dictionary of Common Philosophical Terms by Gregory E. Pence
35. MAde in Heaven by Adele Geras
36. Little Women by Louisa May Alcott
37. The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari by Robin S. Sharma
38. Freakonomics by Steven D. Levitt and Stephen J. Dubner
39. Village by the Sea by Anita Desai
40. The Sun in the Morning by M.M. Kaye
41. Bicycle Shop Murder by Robert Burton Robinson
42. The 3 Mistakes of My Life by Chetan Bhagat
43. Be Careful What You Wish For by Jeffrey Archer
44. How to Get Filthy Rich in Rising Asia by Mohsin Hamid
45. The Return of the King by J.R.R. Tolkien
46. Diary of a Wimpy Kid by Jeff Kinney
47. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
48. The Two Towers by J.R.R. Tolkien
49. And the Mountains Echoed by Khalid Hoseini
50. Retail Therapy by Roz Bailey
51. Windows in the World by Frederic Beigbeder
52. The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka
53. The Girl You Left Behind by JoJo Moyes
54. Home by Julie Myerson
55. When Will There Be Good News? by Kate Atkinson
56. BestKept Secret by Jeffrey Archer
57. The Sins of the Father by Jeffrey Archer
58. Tales and Legends from India by Ruskin Bond
59. Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
60. Coming Up Next by Penny Smith
61. Me Before You by JoJo Moyes
62. Only Time Will Tell by Jeffrey Archer


Sunday, December 7, 2014

Buy a Saucepan :P

why do i need to buy a saucepan? i have no idea, i just did - i don't cook or anything - i just wanted to own a nice cute little saucepan and here it is, i need to buy a frying pan though and learn to make pancakes!

my cute little blue saucepan :D


Make a Capelet

the picture is not very clear, but i think that you will get the general idea and the sad news is that my LYS is out of yarn, i fear that they might shut down and i have no idea, what i am going to do then???


The Last Post - What Would I Lose?

[this is not really a last post - it was a last post that i wrote before leaving my previous job]

Being a teacher is supposed to be a fulfilling job, but it is not always the case.

certain times, when my decisions as a teacher are overridden, i feel down and discouraged. Thinking what is the point of all the things. I go through to make sure that everything is proper.

For example, when checking the exam papers, I found that a child has left almost all the paper blank and as a result, he failed. I later discovered that he has flunked almost all other subjects as well. [we raised a great objection when he got the admission in this particular grade, because his entry test stated it clearly that he is unable to take the burden ... anyway] The reason he doesn't understand English.

Anyway, we decided to detain him [that is, we thought that it is best for him to repeat the class] and the parent of the child was called to discuss the matter.

Now, the father happens to be of some kind of the powerful officer. he came storming and threaten us to take to court and accused of  being biased and whatnot.

now after the sunday holiday, he came to office all tames and calm because he got what he wanted: he got his son promoted by asking the principal to do so. lots of reasons for principal to give in.

the point of this discussion is that I'll ultimately stop seething and thinking about the issue. but the problem will not go away, it will only grow compound for the father and the child. the child will not overcome his problems but keep ignoring them. he needs help with his basic language and reading skills, he needs motivation with his studies. he needs help with his social skills, he needs to calm down and feel normal not like the son of some high profile officer ... who could get things done his own way forcefully!

so, i'll forget the child; and the entire matter but the problems will keep growing and the father would use his power to get the child out of the problem . . . and then one day, the father would be tired and the son would be incurable. i'll be out of the picture, and the child and the parent will regret and nothing could be done!!!!

i still wish him all the best and i pray that his father sees the light that sometimes unnecessary support also becomes a burden and a curse for the children.