A thing for everyone!!!!

the biggest question i have ever asked myself and everyone else i know, is why to be? there was a time [well there are still the times, when i don't want to be] when i thought that being was such a waste of time!!!! so i tried to find ways in which not to be, only to find out that the only thing is 'to be' - confusing, huh???

not much!

you can't decide to be or not to be on your own! because you are! now the question is why you are the way you are! what is the purpose? the reason behind being?

if you find the answer to this, you will be satisfied and say, 'sometimes being is good'

i have still not found out why i m? but i have stopped question my being, i just am, although i have been many things in my life, i enjoyed being all of those, but i have not found out one thing that i'll like to be for rest of my life! so the question is not to find the way to unexist - to stop being, the problem is to find out- what is that you will enjoy being!!! :)

i have been a teacher, a software engineer, a writer!!!! [well i stink at it] a poet [:P - seriously] an artist [the work look like a 5 years old :P] a gardener [my plants live though :)] and many small things, but i m not going to stick to anyone of them!

i m still looking for what i want to be when i'll finish college!!!! i might go study more!!! [no i m not going to be a software engineer or teacher - but i still want to study more] travel a bit [never done that, always have excuses] teach - in a different environment, sell a picture [oh! BTW i have done that too]

but i know, if i m - there is a reason for it! i m going to look for it, even if takes my entire life.

being 27 does not mean that i have to be sure about everything in my life by now!!!! i can be as confused as i want to be!!!

until i find out what i want to be - hv fun!

Sugandh

The Political Circus II

my comments on PPP's today's jalsa in Haiderabad...

"people's party is wither delusional or ignorant"

because Kaira said that people approve of their strategies and policies!!!!!

Sugandh

The Political Circus

i pass around 'dou talwar' quite often!!! [translate it to fact that daily - four times!!!!] and yesterday was a MQM rally there, but they blocked a lot of space almost three days earlier. and what was the rally about? Peace!!! i found it funny, a bully complaining about bullying!!!!???

second almost all the sindh has broken into riots - because of the local bodies bill that provincial government passed!!! but who cares about few hundred thousands sindhis - the natives of sindh???? let them burn their own property and destroy whatever little facilities they have - we are going to stay in government, even if everyone hates us!!!

Imran Khan decided to march to Waziristan!!! Yaaye!!! finally someone to go there and see and show rest of us, how people are living there!!! But what???? he never went there!!!! he was stopped on the way and he was ok with it!!!??? obviously, he never intended to go there, because if he did, he would have settled things long before this march!!!! as MFUR (that is my short for Maulana Fazlur Rahman) said that it was a scene in a long film!!!

Hey! wait! i m not Jamat-e-Islami or whatever party MFUR belongs to either!!! it is just that i don't follow them at all!!!! O.o ... i know i should!!!

Sugandh

The Food Fantasies

i m not a foodie - translate it to the fact that i will not cook when hungry :P so well, most of the times i m not hungry even! really!!!! i m only hungry when i m tensed or bored!!!! and exams make me tensed!!!

so during the exams i do two things - i eat and sleep- [yeah well, i study too] and i harbor these food fantasies in which i plan menus and snacks and what not.

my favorite food fantasy is one with noodles - long creamy noodles with chicken and basil and noodles with red sauce and meat balls, noodles with sausages and oregano, just plain noodles with vegetables, noodles with smoked mince meat!!! [well writing about it makes my mouth water]

another craving that i have is of eating cakes, cheese cakes, chocolate mousse cake, chocolate mud cake, pineapple cake, chocolate fudge cake and lots more cakes. - ah cakes!!!!

then i think of drinking hot chocolate - a large mug of steaming creamy chocolate with buns - raisin buns with jam - strawberry jam!!! [yum!!!]

then i have one all time favorite fantasy of eating bar b.q. food with paratha!!! gola kebab, rashmi kebab, bihari kebab, tikka, seekh boti!!!! with raita and salad and imli ki chuttni and pepsi!!!! loads of pepsi!

there is one strange thing about pepsi, when i don't drink it for days, i don't miss it, but as soon as i have one sip and all i want is pepsi!!!!

then ice cream - moven pick, igloo, walls, omore - any flavor, any size, any color, anytime would do!!! :P one simply never fantasize about food without thinking of ice cream :D

so well, yeah! for a person like me - who panics at the mention of name 'cook', own only one cookbook [that also is a chocolate cookbook] and few recipes [that are of omelettes] and hates spending money on buying ingredients for herself!!! this is too much a fantasy- that always leaves me hungrier than i was :P

i can only hope that exams end soon and i can go back to my 'don't care about food' self!!!

Sugandh

My Reaction to every action

it's been a long time since i wrote!!! y? dunno, i was not suffering from writer's block, because what i do is the social commentary of sorts not something creative and the part of world i live in, there is always something to comment about!

so yeah! i was basically being lazy, my hands itching to write [read type] and my head full of ideas, but still there was something missing, like coordination between two - so i didn't write!

and now i m back to write about everything in general, this post is just my reaction to everything that is happening around me, lets start with the protests today in Pakistan!!!!

there are people who are protesting against the movie [i dunno what else to call it, i don't even know how long it is or anything, so khair!] by burning and looting and throwing stones and then there are those who are commenting on it! i just wanna ask people if protests [read burning, looting and destroying] is not the way to protest and what people did was no in accordance with the teachings of Islam and it is not the way to spend 'Love of Prophet Day' [which it certainly is not], just tell me how did u spend your "Love of Prophet Day"? Did you recite durood shareef? did you go to Jumma Prayers? Did you deliberately followed any sunnah?

please answer someone!

while talking to a friend today, bitching about the jamming of the cellular service and banning of youtube - i was of the idea that i can self control myself not to watch that video clip and she was like and in case we came across it - we should have our faith to not let it effect us in anyway! well may be people have no faith!

and then the question is why do they do this, every other year in some part of the west? the answer is simple - they want to incite us!!! make us angry and trust me, it is out fault that they make fun of our religion and our Prophet - How?

if i was such a good Muslim, i would follow all the teachings of Islam and the things would go back as they were in the days of Khilafah! when non muslims used to fear the unity of the Muslims, their faith, discipline, practices. Think about it, we have abandoned the teachings of Holy Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) and we have become wayward, and we don't follow what we think is right, we make changes in the religion as we wish. it is our fault that our Prophet is being ridiculed, insulted!!!!

i, as a Muslim, am at fault, for not presenting my religion in the way it is supposed to be!!!! Love Prophet (peace be upon him) act as He taught!!!! or at least try!

Sugandh

a little sunshine - a little hope

i don't really like reproducing things here because i have other blog to do that! but now is the time when i need a little hope in life... so here it is for me on my 27th birthday ...


Oh The Places You'll Go
By: Dr. Seuss

Congratulations!

Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!
You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down streets. Look'em over with care.
About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down a not-so-good street.

And you may NOT find any you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course, you'll head straight out of town.
It's opener there... in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen and frequently do
to people as brainy and footsy as you.
And when things start to happen, don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along. You'll start happening too.

Oh! The Places You'll Go!

You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers who soar to high heights.
You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don't.
Because, sometimes, you won't.
I'm sorry to say so but, sadly, it's true
that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you.

You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on. You'll be left in a Lurch.
You'll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then, that you'll be in a Slump.

And when you're in a Slump, you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.
You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked.

A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And if you go in, should you turn left or right...
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.

The Waiting Place...for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance. Everyone is just waiting.

No! That's not for you!
Somehow you'll escape all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing.
With banner flip-flapping, once more you'll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you're that kind of a guy!

Oh, the places you'll go!

There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored. There are games to be won. And the magical things you can do with that ball will make you the winning-est winner of all. Fame! You'll be famous as famous can be, with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.
Except when they don't. Because, sometimes, they won't.
I'm afraid that some times you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win 'cause you'll play against you.

All Alone!
Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you'll be quite a lot.
And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will go though the weather be foul.
On you will go though your enemies prowl.
On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl.
Onward up many a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak.
On and on you will hike. And I know you'll hike far
and face up to your problems whatever they are.

You'll get mixed up, of course, as you already know.
You'll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and ¾ percent guaranteed.)
Kid, you'll move mountains!

So...be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ale Van Allen O'Shea, you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!

:)
Sugandh

Finding Answers

questions- many of them we ask ourselves during the course of our lives, some we find answers to and some go unanswered. some questions are answered by other people - our teachers, friends, parents, mentors- and  to some questions answer come themselves - with time.

now the question here is how do we know, what question will be answered in what way? either we go to people and ask for answers, or wait for the answers to present themselves. how long should we wait, who is the right person to ask for answers, how do we know if the answer is correct or not?

a single question is never satisfied with a single answer. one question have numerous answers, and only one of those answers is the correct answer!

in my experience - the correct answers present themselves with time. even if you have stopped looking for the answer and have satisfied yourself with a make believe answer, the correct answer will always hit home!

and sometimes the answers come so late that they have stopped making a difference to you! but is it ever late to find answers to any of your questions. again in my experience - NO. it is never late to find an answer because unanswered questions eat your peace of mind! making the life difficult and one's brain anxious! the most unanswered questions start with the word 'why', all of us wants to know the reason for the things that are happening to us and around us. some of purely scientific phenomenon, kids ask these questions a lot - why does it rain? why is the sky blue? etc and the grown ups ask questions that are more mythical in nature, why do i exist? why did this happen to me?

doubts are questions too, doubts start with questioning one's ability and motivation for doing this? why am i doing this? am i doing this right? what is in it for me? and much more. who will answer these questions for us? no one! just time!!!! and time is a tough teacher, it answers when we have stopped looking for answers. but still when the answers presents themselves to us, it is like a beginning of a new day, a dawn of new era. it ends the monotony of life, making is bright and colorful!

so to all those, who have questions, keep asking them, but don't doubt yourself! the answers will certainly come!

Sugandh