The Conflict Within!!!!!!!

sometimes we don't even realize that there are so many of us inside us!!!!!!!!

until we reach some cross road in our life and we need to take some decision! until we fall in love with a person who contradict us!!!!!!

then only we realize that there are so many of us inside us!!!!!!!!

the two of you inside you keep fighting within you causing a conflict inside you, people outside might think that you are at peace with the world outside you, but it is only you who go through such hell!!!! asking questions and answering them for yourself!!! and never being satisfied with the answer given!!! never reaching a destination, never achieving a goal!!!!!!

the inner war is the most dangerous of all wars!!!!!

and often the two of you are polar opposite of each other. never agreeing on one thing, never loving the same person, never wanting to do the same thing!!!!!

you hate yourself for this!!!! you hate people for thinking of you having no problem!!!! some might see your predicament but they wont understand you!!! thinking this is for attention seeking, self generated problem!!!! whatever, this is the problem!!!! you fighting with you!!!!!

i have not found out yet, what to do with the other me!!!!! the scared me ~ and she has not found out, what to do with me!!!!!! the outspoken one ~ the pretender!!!!!
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human beings are amazing they survive this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sugandh