Awesome Things

i discovered about 1000 awesome things last year, and ever since i have been following it. it is a very nice idea to count one's blessings. a man who was depressed started this blog so that he could count things that were nice in his life, that made his life worth living! awesome idea - simply awesome.

if we think like this, we can all write our own awesome things blogs. whenever i think about this blog i start noticing things that i fine awesome.
like the smell f coffee, smell of freshly mowed grass, the smell of rain on soil, the smell of beach. the smell of babies, the flowers, the spring, the winters, ice creams, beads, knitting, cross stitching, buying you favorite book, earning and spending :)

i can go on and on with my list of awesome. so if you have never heard of this blog, go and see it. you will certainly like many things there and find them "awesome"
cheers
Sugandh

Thoughts

most of the times when i have got an interesting title, i have got nothing to write and when i have got something to write i don't have a title!!!!!

so well, i just finished watching the movie 'julie and julia'. amazing movie, inspiring and happy in the end!!!! ah i m in awe of cooks. actually i m in awe of everyone who can cook. i am just not one of them!!!!!!! :( even when i want to cook, i don't!!!!!!! i have no idea, why???????

well, people sometimes don't know what they want, but most of the times they know what do they want!!!! i just don't know all the time what i want!!!!! :/

i had a job, a salary and a future [despite being a bleak one] but i left it for doing masters in ... software engineering. when i have forgotten half the computer languages i learnt in undergraduate program. when i am in doubt of ever finding a job! and then i have very less fund to complete this degree and the institute i chose have no scholarships for masters, so i have to apply for a general scholarship, but for that i have to give a GAT test first and that is in November and by that the last date for scholarship would be way too behind!!!!!!! Phew!!!!! i said it all. so i dunno what do i want!!!

life can be confusing, but then that's life. if it is not confusing, then u really don't have life!!!!!

enjoy, while you can and i read 38th book of the year.
Sugandh

Reaction

ok, i m late, but here is my reaction to altaf hussain's speech yesterday. you can't blame me for not listening to him. at 8 o'clock i turn on the TV and i switch to Dawn News, wanting to listen to news bulletin but what the hell, there is altaf hussain on, ok no problem i m going to switch the channel, tune to Hum TV, watch the new drama serial. 9 o'clock drama ends, i switch back to Dawn News [i get desperate for news at times :S] still altaf hussain on, flip the channel, altaf hussain, again change the chanel, altaf hussain and on almost every news channel altaf hussain. ok no problem. listen to him, get his version of the story. [i really believe in versions of stories] ok be patient SW. he is going to make sense to you after sometime. you are confused because you are listening to him for the first time.

alright, i am doing great for sometime and then he start singing 'bolo, bolo, bolo, kuch tou bolo' and that just ticked me off, and i changed the channel to BBC Lifestyle saying bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. i have never said this much bullshit in my life. [i later found out that he actually sang 'parday mein rehnay dou' and today i found out that he actually said 'darling journaliston kay leeaye!!!!!!!!]

Goodness, how can people stand this for hours when i was unable to stand him for 15 minutes. people must have greater amounts of patience than me!!!!! certainly!!!!!

after the press cum video conference, all the tv anchors start analyzing what happened!!!!!! WOW. but nothing happened, everyone looked so pissed off at MQM and MQM blew it big time. Hamid Mir actually cut that Ex Mayor!!!!! and Talat Hussain dug out every video evidence of altaf hussain's past statements!!!!! wow! all of sudden it looks like media was shaking off the fear of MQM.

Amazing.... i always thought that all the media was afraid of the MQM , but yesterday was amazing. :D

no i m not specifically hard on MQM. Political parties in Pakistan, usually don't make sense, although at heart i tend to favor sindhis but i m not pro the nationalist parties of sindh that exist at the moment, but let me tell you this, i can actually listen to ayaz latif palijo, safder sarki and qadir magsi. although i don't agree to them at times!!!!! i am able to listen to asif ali zardari - the president, and yousuf raza gilani, after everything, [just like his today plea for flood victims. he should have told what government is doing, not what people and international community ought to do] but yesterday was unbearable.

so after watching some more BBC Lifestyle, i come to my room and imagine the torture, the parosees listening to the speech in full volume!!!!!! i wanted to bang my head against the nearest wall, but i refrained. i picked up my knitting and ran back downstairs. and started watching some more BBC Lifestyle.

if i kill another soul for the "LEADERS" then i m damned fool...


P.S. Zulfiqar Mirza must be a happy man these days, as he ignited all this(~quoting ahad ali shah kazmi)

Sugandh

Teachers

happy teachers day


when we think of our teachers we tend to think of the teachers that we liked, who we thought as our ultimate role model. we tend to ignore teachers that were not so good, that were rude and hard and unkind. we don't think of the teachers that made our life miserable while teaching us. [i had quite a few of such teachers]


when i was in school [that would be high school as i still am in school and that would be university :P] i had teachers who would go out of the way to facilitate the students, who would listen to anything we had to say and in short such teachers were everyone's favorite. i had an English teacher, who not only encouraged us to speak, but also encouraged us to do things that we were generally interested in. [in my case it was embroidery and speaking out] and there were teachers who made our life hell, from ridiculing the hair styles of the students [and mind it, we were only allowed simple pony tails or plaits] to ridiculing the way we spoke, not correcting us but making fun. now you can imagine the amount of respect that i have for both of them and the difference.


when i was training to be a teacher, my English teacher asked the class, what kind of teachers you would like to be, to help us set our future goals. and he said you would be lucky if you have a favorite teacher. i was the luckiest i had 3 favorite teachers, one from school and two from university. i would really like to be like my English teacher of 8th grade, but i would certainly like to avoid being like my English teacher of 10th grade. [seems like English teachers have influenced me a lot] a teacher is a person who is suppose to encourage, to polish, to listen to. a teacher is supposed to be a guide, a friend, a mentor, not some one who labels you, discourage you and ridicule you!!!!!!


this is a very serious job, with high responsibility [so what if little income] and if you can't take that responsibility please don't become a teacher and ruin young minds and give false information to them. 


happy teaching to all the teachers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sugandh

Eid, Suspicion and other thoughts

Eid

Eid Mubarak to everyone who is reading this. may ur day be filled with joy and rain water :P

so here i am on eid, wearing a very 'festive' looking dress and my sister go like, you wore this dress today!!! you should have waited for a festive occasion. and i go like, "what is more festive than eid?"

this convo simply reflect that people have actually forgotten that eid is a gift from Allah, for successfully observing the month of Ramzan and for forbidding oneself from things that are allowed only for the happiness of Allah. this is the day to dress up and be happy. it is not the day off only!!!!!

Suspicion

How is it possible that Zulfiqar Mirza sahib speak and I don’t comment on it? So there goes the bomb, he had said out loud what most of us wanted to hear. [at least ppl I know, wanted to hear what he said!!!!] and then the news reporters, current affairs anchors, ppl in  general started asking, if he is speaking the truth? God! How suspicious a nation can get? We are actually divided in groups just because of a statement from a politician. we as a nation should stop being suspicious and start looking for the truth ourselves. Or else we are doomed for the eternity if only we believe in what we hear!!!!! GET UP PPL!!!!!!

and people i met!!!!!


so i joined this new university for doing masters and i met quite a few people and some of them are so nice that u immediately want to be friends with them and some of them are so horrible  that i would like to stay away from them... Well ppl!!!!!!


Sugandh

My Little Girl

i started teaching in 2008 and the first class i got was of 6th grade along with 5th. i was 23 years old, almost fresh out of university and hugely emotional. my students gave me something to look forward to. the happiest moment was when i tried to teach them something and they actually got the hold of the almost new concept of science and their faces shone with the pride of knowing something. the satisfaction that i got seeing their faces can not be compared to any other satisfaction.

the first class that i taught was quiet, as only few students were present, i introduced myself and ask them about them, what they liked, and what was their favorite subject. all the introductory stuff. in that class there was a sweet girl, thin, short, with big eyes. she always looked inquisitive. pretty good at studies, monitor of her class and she came from a very respectable family too!!!!!

the only word that i could of think for her was 'sweet'. we were not teacher and student, we were friends, older sister, younger sister kinda relationship. and then i left the job in that school, moved to other school, a new job, new set of students to teach!!!!!

i lost touch with her and today when i found her this is what she has written about her on her facebook info page.

"I'm not perfect. I'll annoy you tick you off, say stupid things & then take them back. But put all them aside, You'll never find a girl that cares and loves you more than me. I can turn from a Normal girl to a total Bitch in'a Second ! :* I Hate Love ! sometimes I can be Rude, Bictchy, Mean but if you can't tolerate me at my worst sure you dont deserve me at my best ! Crazzzzzzzzzzyyyyy :* and i love being it ♥ :D My Friends are my life ♥ :') Never Regret, live the moment and move on :) that's what i always do :p For me Life is climb, and we all are climbers . . I'm near the Top ♥ .. And I'm good at confusing people :p you hate me? get in the line with others waiting for me to give a fuck ! Man I Love My self :* ♥ :D"

i wonder what happened to my sweet girl. the way today's youth use the bad language thinking that it is cool and in, is so disheartening.
Sugandh

Birthday Blues

one of my students said, "miss how old are you?"
i said, "25 years."
she said, "you are too old. you should get married or at least get engaged. miss XYZ is younger than you, but she is already engaged."

my brother said, "i live with three old women" (referring to mom, me and our sister)
i said, "i don't feel old, when i was 19 i thought that by the age of 25 i'll be doomed, too old to do anything, but now i don't feel old enough."
he said, "whatever!"

ha! people think that i m too old, but ask me i just started living and making sense of myself :)
happy 26th birthday SW!




Sugandh