i started cross stitching when i was 9 years old and i love everything about cross stitching and this year i designed and stitched my own sampler. :)... it was the status set on 'Facebook' by my cousin and i loved it!
i hope that u'll appreciate it and if anyone wants it feel free to ask :D
cheers
Sugandh
sometimes i just don't feel anything for people!!!!!
i can be compassionate, caring, loving, forgiving and then i can be cruel, unkind, brutal...if i can say that... i just don't feel anything for people around me!!!!!
and that feels confusing and scary!!!!!
and sometimes i am happy with life and sometimes i think that life is not worth living...........
and when my life isn't worth living, then how can anybody else's can be????!!!
the nature of the scissor is to cut, but what we cut with it totally depends on us and it never is scissor's fault!
the above was my argument when a colleague saw the scissors charm in a keyring and started admonishing it!
before this thing happened i thought that i was the only pessimist around but there are people who deserve this title more than i do! the scissor will only remind me how useful it is to me while i m working with anything paper, cloth, thread, whatever and i need scissor to cut it and shape it according to my desire!
Many years back i started knitting a pullover with my newly learnt technique of using different colors and knitting a check, the pullover wasn't completed until many years and during that time i fell out of many things and experienced many undesirable things and i never looked at the garment that i had half completed! i took out the half completed pullover now and i realized that i am wasting a lot of my energy on safe keeping the experiences that i don't even want to remember and i undid the garment and i decided to do it again!
and i learnt a lesson that when when u don't like anything in knitting u can undo it and go to the beginning again and same you can do in life, if something bothers you let it go and go back to the beginning and start again! this way u might waste some time [years may be] but it is way better than wasting away one's life! :)
in my Sunday class, a teacher asked us, 'what is education?' and everybody gave the answers that are readily available in books, but i said, 'education is whatever you make it! it is not a living thing to think for itself, it is a process, bend it this way or that way and it will take that shape.' everyone disagreed with it [as usual... people hardly agree with me or you may take it other way around :P] after listening to this every thought that some thing terrible must have happened to me during my earlier student years to make me think that!!! [honestly apart from going to school nothing terrible happened to me!!! :|] so they asked me to define what education did to me? and i said, 'when i went to school i realized that i was better than everyone else in my class, so that made me proud, not 'proud' proud, but 'wicked' proud.' [interesting huh!?!?!?!?!]
and recently i found myself telling some one in my class that my sole purpose of attending the Sunday class is to annoy people, to wake them up from their deep, comfortable slumber and to face the reality!!!!! [i actually think that they r mediocre and they need to change their ways and stop accepting things as they are and to start questioning things around them!!!!!!!!]
so the reason for above rambling is the ask myself and everyone who is reading this, is that i am turning into? i disagree with most of the people around me. i hold myself in the higher/lower place than other people [never at the same place as them!] and i m trying to make people think that they could do better....
i think that i am turning into a monster [why can't i just leave ppl alone?????] or i always have been a monster, i m realizing it only now!!!!
there are very few people who will admit being obsessed with oneself and shahan would happily admit so :) and for that courage i think that he is amazing!
He has got an urge to explain himself and prove his mantle to others and that is what makes him amazing too...
he is never scared of doing things that he like and after doing the most weirdest of the things (like dressing up like a girl!!!!!) he would happily and PROUDLY admit it.
I've ever seen anyone more prepared for all the situations. he have a plan B for plan B!!!! if this will not happen, I'll do that and if that will not happen, i'll do this. Phew!!! too much for a 16 year old....
ever ready to experiment with new things and dramatizing things in the most amazing way. he is one of the best story tellers i have met.
He is amazing because he is innovative, fearful and he admits it.bound to do things that he thinks that he should do, and open to all experiences just for the sake of the experience. He represent a true "warrior of light" of Paulo Coelho.
for these and many more reasons that i can't put into words, i think that Shahan is amazing!
Paulo Coelho said that sometimes you keep finding yourself int he same situation again and again and you keep thinking why again? this is because you've not learnt the desired lesson of that situation. so you keep going back to it, until you learn that lesson and that situation stop recurring.
Somewhere else i read that human beings draw circles through different things that they do. every circle represents a process that you have started and finished. some circles are big, they encompass many years of your life and some are small, but they all make the life complete and give us a sense of achievement. but sometimes a circle is left incomplete, the sharp edges keep distracting you, hurting you. You keep going back to the beginning of the circle, leaving it incomplete again! That broken circle keeps you restless and you keep encountering the beginning of circle, irritated. thinking why again? until you finish that circle, smooth the edges ... finish what you started, only then you can go ahead in your life begin another circle and be content and satisfied!!!!!
best of luckt o you all for finishing all the circles of your life :)
