What to write?

Sometimes there is nothing to talk about. and this generally happens when there is a lot to talk about. there are so many problems in this world that they leave you confusing and dumbfounded! but in reality, we all are confined in our own little worlds, too busy to think about big problems of the world because we think that we are unable to do anything anyway...

this has happen to me as well, i am so busy with trivial problems of my job and studies and hobbies that i don't even have  time to think of what is happening to the world or even to my country. i think that my responsibility ends when i listen to news bulletin. blissful ignorance.

i hope that things change in the coming year!

Sugandh

new things i did this year

2010 have not ended but i have done a lot of new things this year and it was fun!

this year i finally read 'to kill a mocking bird' and 'love in time of cholera'. two wonderful books i must say and amazing read. i was dazed even after days of reading 'to kill a mocking bird'

and i made my first ever baby blanket and completed the baby sweater and booties

i ate kiwi jam for the first time in my life 

i actually completed one year at a job and i taught 'geography' 

i maintained my blog pretty well and i knitted some lace.

i did a lot of shopping and bought and tasted nestle fruit yogurt!!! 

and i even tried new Vaseline body lotion and new perfumes.


 i shopped a lot and read a lot. i read 27 + books this year my best till date :D

i tried new wheat biscuits from peek freans and they were good 

 all in all 2010 was a wonderful year =)
Sugandh

Attitudes

kids in the school where i teach are very reluctant to pick up the trash and the wrappers that they have thrown on the ground, if i ask them to do that they instantly reply that i have not thrown it! so to encourage them to clean their school and to pick up any wrappers that they see lying around, i started picking it up myself. and i thought that it had a pretty good effect on the students.

sadly the dustbins are placed at very far away corners, instead of being in every corner. so i can't leave my duty, one day i collected all the wrappers and kept them in my hand, a teacher passed from their and passed a remark, 'kachray wali miss' [the teacher with trash!!!] and that was quite shocking.

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people will not like you because you are beautiful or intelligent or rich, even though it is not ur fault that you are any of this. i always had problems because of my knowledge, i never had friends and few that i had were what you call 'fair weather friends'.

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i attend a sunday class for B.Ed. the reputation of that class is that you are only supposed to get the certificate and thats about it. and you don't have to study because cheating is mostly allowed during such exams! and for some weird reason, i love to study and i do that and people get ' but you are attending off-campus, why study?'

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things need to be changed

Sugandh

Theory of relativity by SW

:( :( :( [sad face bcz u might not agree with what i write :(]

i m a lazy person when it comes to keeping up with ppl... there are many reasons for that
i. i don't understand ppl in the first place!!! most of the times
ii. i don't agree with them rest of the time.....
iii. and they don't agree with me as well :(
iv. and i think that most of the ppl are double faced, cheats, liars and two timed scoundrels. and
v. i m very rude!!!!!!

and i don't really believe in long distance relations 'meri ammi ki khala ki nand ki beti ki jethani ki bahu ki bhanji' khuda ki pannah. as if i don't hv anything more interesting to do in life than to remember these ppl!!!!!

i believe that your only relatives are ppl who r near to ur heart and understand you and rest are just acquaintances. even if they are ur blood relatives. :)

Work is love made visible...

When i read this quote i instantly fell in love with it. the complete quote is 


"Work is love made visible. And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste, it is better that you should leave your work and sit at the gate of the temple and take alms of those who work with joy."

~Kahlil Gibran

how true! i have experienced it time again and again that when someone loves you and they do something for you the result is outstanding, the love is made visible through that deed, no matter how small the task is. :)

for example i know someone who keep doing things mechanically and not enjoying at she should, the result being her work is just work done... without feeling and warmth and love.

if you cook food... u need your love for ppl ur cooking for as well as ur love for the cooking itself to make tasty food, or else u'll hv something to eat on table and nothing more. ever wonder y we all love our mother's food? bcz she puts a bit of love in it.

i made this quote my philosophy of my life, whatever i do i love it and if i can't love it after trying for sometime i leave the work [very reason for me leaving my various jobs]. jokingly i tell ppl that i don't do much bcz i don't love much! ;)

and in the end the faiz's poem "kuch ishq kia, kuch kaam kia" is the best example of scenario that is created bcz of lack of love

vo log bhut khush qismat thay

jo ishq ko kaam sanjhtay thay

ya kaam se aashqi karte thay

hum jeetay jee masroof rahay

kuch ishq kia kuch kaam kia

kaam ishq ke aaray aata raha

aur ishq se kaam uljhta raha

phir aakhir tung aakar hum nay

dono ko adhura chorr diya

The Yarn Ball

knitting is one of my hobbies... but it has changed ever since i started it... it has become an exercise to save me from hyper tension and bouts of depression that i can undergo.

Knitting for me has turned into a therapy and not just knitting but everything related to knitting is like a medicine to me. from yarn buying - to casting on - and knitting - purl knit purl knit - bind off - stitch and sew - all of these are medicine to me.

before i start knitting i have to make a yarn ball, the wool is available in the loose form that u can not directly knit from so i have to make a yarn ball that in itself is a great exercise in patience and reflection!!!

just imagine making a ball with a seven ounce yarn and u wind it around a paper or ur hand first and then the ball becomes bigger and bigger and u keep doing it... unable to stand as the yarn is around ur knees [if you get up it would get all tangled up] and sitting quietly thinking and doing what you are doing... keeping to the task silently...one get a lot of time to think about things that you otherwise not get a chance to think of.

just this evening i made a yarn ball with TV on but after sometime i lost track of what was on TV and started peering inside my own world. :)... thinking of what should i do to shed off the feeling of being burned out and ignored... of what i can do differently next time and how to clean up the mess that my procrastination has created around me...and after i finished making the yarn ball... i got up and started putting things in order .:)

Happy knitting

I Realize - then...

in one of my earlier posts i hv written that realization is the step towards change... now i had this conversation with a colleague and she said that our life is too complicated and we can simplify it. we r so much into worldly things that we hardly pay attention to Allah and Prophet (PBUH). she said, for exapmle if we start wearing an 'abbaya'  [a loose coat worn by Muslim women on clothes] we would save so much time that we spend fussing over clothes every morning!

i said ok, when u realize that why don't u do that! she said, i just don't have determination, what will ppl say and we have to fit in with the society.

after this i realized that 'realization is not always the first step towards change' :(